Having children with behavior disorders is one of the hardest things to deal with. I know it isn’t my children’s fault when they are screaming at me, throwing things or even stomping. They have a disorder that means they can’t control those behaviors.
That doesn’t make it any easier to deal with.
My daughter is the absolute worst. She has Intermittent Explosive Disorder. This basically means she “explodes” at even the slightest issue that wouldn’t phase most children. Telling her no to anything can cause a fit that lasts for hours. She kicks, screams, hits….whatever she can possibly do to make life miserable. I had to tell the neighbors about her disorder just so they don’t think we are beating her because I know they can hear her screaming at us.
I take her to counseling every week and a psychiatrist once a month. She takes Zoloft to help, and for a while it really helped….but it isn’t working anymore. At this very moment she is screaming at the top of her lungs from her room. It all started because my husband told her not to go outside when they were here to hook up our heater. She immediately came in and asked me if she could check the mail. I didn’t know she was told she had to stay in. She grabbed the key, ran out and gave a devilish smile to my husband who was outside. She knew what she was doing. He came in after her and told her she wasn’t supposed to go outside. She threw a fit, threw the key down, stomped and started yelling. I told her to go to her room….of course she refused.
I can’t take it anymore.
It’s been over half an hour of her screaming in her room. (I had to pick her up and put her in her room.) She is kicking her door and screaming to let her out.
Why is parenting so hard?
One moment can be pure bliss and having so much fun with the kids, and the next is this. It is miserable and there are many times I wonder what I was thinking having kids to begin with. Is this wrong? Maybe, that makes me feel guilty. I see these moms who have well-behaved children and they enjoy spending time with them. I honestly hate the days are off school because I know it will be pure hell all day. I don’t want to take the kids out in public to do anything because I don’t want one of these fits to start where people can see.
People can judge me, but they don’t know what it is like to live like this. No one understands what it is like to have a child with a behavior disorder..unless you have one. You can give advice and tell me what you do to control your children, but I bet it doesn’t work for Kylie.
I know she doesn’t LIKE throwing these fits. She looks miserable while she is crying and just can’t stop. What can I do?!? I can sit with her and just hug her and sometimes that helps to calm her down….but it is all.the.time. I get to where I just let her scream and I sit downstairs, crying.
The other night we had an hour screaming fit because it was bed time and we told her she could only have water to drink. She wanted soda. We told her there is no way, she can get a small drink of water. The fit was insane. She kicked my husband, threw everything off her bed and screamed for what seemed like forever.
Am I the only parent that feels like this?
I feel like a horrible mom to even think that I wish I wasn’t a parent. I wish I didn’t have to deal with this day in and day out. This doesn’t mean I don’t love my children and I would do anything in the world for them. Obviously I care about them to spend so much time trying to get them the help they need to control their behaviors.
What do I do?
We were planning on leaving the kids at the grandparents house for a while so I could go to the gym. With the fit that Kylie is throwing there is NO WAY we can leave her. I get to miss out, again. I needed a break, I needed a way to relieve some stress, but of course I can’t go.
I’m over it.